My older three females look like they might be pregnant and now the younger three females are getting the males interested but one of the younger girls is fighting off the males and getting her tail bitten (likely when she bites a male) and seems to have lost weight in the past two days since inspecting everyone closely last. I feel guilty for forcing her to mate but that is why I got her (she and her sister have white noses). I will separate her tomorrow if she is still fighting but eventually, she will have to mate ... maybe after she sees babies of other females try to nurse her, she might be more accepting of male advances. Otherwise, her heat might end soon giving her a few days without male advances.

Trust is like dust, it takes a long time in dirty conditions for it to build up but if you lose that trust, there is no way to hide the parts where your trust has been lost.

I am unsure of the spelling of pemissen but I am referring to the dried mixture of berries, roots, and meat that North American natives used to make and store for winter use. When your body is cold, it naturally restricts blood flow to the extremities (arms and legs) to keep the core temperature up. Restricted blood flow means less red blood cells available to provide oxygen for the muscles. Lack of oxygen will give a fatigued feeling (as felt by sufferers of "Chronic Fatigue") and long-term lack of oxygen will cause a build-up of lactic acid causing that muscle pain felt when you exert yourself too long (as felt by sufferers of Fibromyagia). One remedy is to have more iron in your diet but it needs vitamin C and E in the diet at the same time to process that iron to be useable by the body. The meat has lots of iron but the vitamins get lost in the drying process for meat but dried berries retain most of their vitamins C and E. There are another 9 essential nutrient symbiotic relationships where one nutrient comes from one and a needed other nutrient the other of berries and meat. Trace minerals, starch and fiber come from the roots (and the minerals usually require vitamins provided by the berries to process them). I am suffering from low blood cell count and have recently also experienced the symptoms of fibromyagia and chronic fatigue but not now that I have specifically tried to match my iron intake with vitamin C and up some of the B vitamins and vitamim K which are noted for red blood cell health. I may have less red blood cells then normal but I believe they are healthier now then they were last month and before.

I dreamed that I was working for a vehicle parts distributor specializing in farm machinery and oil and gas industry vehicles. While cashing out the till, I was suggesting stuff for the website to the boss. I had a piece of paper bag with some words written on it in pencil beside me and glanced at it for cues when suggesting website improvements and the boss noticed. I explained that the words were written down quickly after waking up from a dream where I was, in that dream, teaching a seminar on keeping repeat customers and wrote down those key words to remember the key points of that seminar so I could make a post about it. The funny thing about that dream and this post is during the conversation with the boss in my dream I was thinking to myself "I have already forgotten the dream (about leading a seminar on customer retention) enough to not remember what some of those words I wrote down are about". Now I have forgotten the word cues too and definitely forgotten he dream within a dream... I would have liked to have remembered that

I mentioned "Teddy Ruxpin" to a guy I work with who likes comics and he said he loved that show as a kid along with "Thundercats". He offered to lend me a DVD of some episodes of Thundercats. Thundercats also has two things I like about Teddy Ruxpin show, 1) different species of characters with equal level of importance as characters and 2) a detailed history and culture about their species and/or about their group. While watching one episode of Thundercats, I heard a musical line of 7 notes that reminded me of a song I recently heard on some newer animated film during the credits. I could not get the tune out of my head but could not remember the words or what film it was in. I finally figured it out... "Open Season" and the musical line had the words "meet me in the meadow". That got me watching Open Season and amazed at all the wonderful inspirational stuff I keep seeing in that movie. I think it is because they specifically tried to create a great animation story department by hiring all sorts of people with story experience and letting them loose on their first animated feature (Open Season by Sony Pictures Animation) so lots of the ideas and gags these people had that they could never include in more controlled studios' productions got worked into Open Season. One of those ideas that inspired me to write this post was when Boog and Eliot were walking in circles before sleeping... and making "crop circles" in the grass. The idea came to me that flying saucers could be inhabited by pets from the future after an epidemic killed off the humans and dogs do the going-in-circles thing before parking the flying saucers. One thing I found funny was how they almost said swear words but didn't exactly like when they came to the same group of beavers and Boog said "This is the same dang dam" or when Boog suggested the animals fight and someone said "He said the F-word". This is in contrast to Shrek where they said the swear word but changed the meaning (granted, they only used on swear word) such as "I've got to go save my ass" and "I don't want to see any ass kissing around here" or the puppet greeting thing where they edit their song to avoid saying "ass" when it clearly rhymes and fits context.

My last post had a "nature docudrama" compared to a cartoon TV show... but they are very much in common for me in that they star non-humans. I just watched a movie called "Paranormal" where they were haunted by something and tried to video record evidence. An expert in ghoasts said that, in his opinion, it was not a ghoast but likely a demon instead. They put out patches of baby powder on the hallway floor to see tracks and the tracks they got were definitely non-human (close to the tracks of a three-toed osterage). At that point in the film, the demon became the protagonist or at least the anti-hero for me... the non-human. Next I watched "The Fourth Kind" where they explained that there are four kinds of space alien encounters (1=see UFO, 2=see evidence like crop circles, 3=meet aliens in person, 4=abductions). As the film went on, I found myself strangly atracted to the aliens (who we never see) even though the film was a psycological horror with the ultimate horror being what the aliens do to those they abduct.

I saw a DVD of a film I think is called "Arctic Tale" and partially made by National Geographic so I was fairly sure it was live action animal footage even though the cover art was of cartoon polar bears. I expected it to be cheesy and aimed at kids but that is just the sort of thing I will likely be making a lot of once I get filming rodents. I never watched it for a few months until yesterday. It was a very good film but certainly not aimed at kids. The animals were in serious life-and-death struggles and many did not survive. The main theme of the film was how life in the arctic is tough but much tougher for most of the large animals (polar bears, walruses, seals, foxes) due to global warming making less time with good sea ice that polar bears need to hunt on and seals and walruses need for birthing and sleeping on. The film was still intended for younger audiences based on the few hints of cheezy things writen in the naration but it was the lack of cheeze that made the movie too serious.

Next I watched Teddy Ruxpin (several episodes of the show on DVD) which is full of cheezy stuff. I absolutely love the show because of the "serious" side of it like all the different characters being fictional species with names and history behind their species. Being cheesy including lots of puns and loads of physical comedy keeps the show fun while the story dabbles in fairly serious topics in places.

I want to do serious stories full of moral truths and environmental warnings and "hard" sci-fi but I can see it as being rather boring or at least rather depressing in parts. What I might need is a bit of cheese to keep things funny and entertaining as I drag my poor characters through nasty story events and emotions and difficult decisions.

There are some words or phrases that are just too tempting to not make puns of. Dala Lama is one. There is a new restaurant in my city called Deli Llama with a goofy, toothy cartoon llama as a mascot image.

In modern society, we reserve our most severe punishment for the crime of murder. As far as thimgs you might do to offend someone's sense of security and hinder their pursuit of happiness, threatening to kill has got to be the worst. Society's prime objective seems to be security and more specfically security from the threat of death. Doetrich Bonhoeffer was a Lutheran pastor living in Hitler's Germany who was a strong advocate of pacifism. Later as Hitler started to have people systematically killed (long before threatening the Jews) Bonhoeffer joined the underground movememt to attempt to kill Hitler. Using murder to stop a murderer was the kind of moral dilemma that pacifism typically opposes but in the case of Hitler, it might have been the only way.

Looking at the favored-by-God people of the Bible, most of them are involved with killing someone. Before David became king in place of Saul, killing the Phillisines caused people to praise David with the line "Saul has killed thousands but David has killed 10's of thousands." (which made Saul determined to kill David). Of the 10 commandments, "do not kill" is way down near the end of the list but dedication to God and parrents and even not workking on the saboth day are what you find at the top of the list... and even including promises and threats recarding complience. If God does see us as eternal souls in temporary physical bodies, then To God's point of view, killing is just vandalism like damaging surrogate robots in the movie "Surrogates". Of course I am never even tempted to murder because I have always believed what Jesus said that even thinking of hate is the same as physically killing in God's eyes.

Lately I have been interested in the life and reasoning behind Hitler's Nazi Germany and how it may have turned out differently with a different person in Hitler's shoes. I have also been interested in all the various "documentaries" about the possible crisis looming in the near future regarding things like global warming or peak oil or recession or global warfar over resources or Islamic extremist aspirations. I rewatched "An Inconvenient Truth" after watching several of these newer doom-and-gloom documentaries. Al Gore had such a radically different agenda then Bush yet both are really puppets to the powerful lobby and public-opinion forces within their respective parties. What would life be like with Al Gore responding to 9-11 and the resulting economy slowdown? How would such decision differences have shaped our present and future political and economic landscapes differently? The same sort of questions are also being asked in my mind regarding Hitler or Stalin or the other leaders typically blamed for other atrocities of the past.